What going dark brought to light
uncertainty, grief, and not knowing
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What could I say about home—about life—that hasn’t been said? What reason would anyone have to read this without the hope of transformation? Of relief? It feels dishonest to make such promises, knowing what I know now. For all the questions I’ve thrown to the stars, today, silence is the only response that rings true.
Sometimes life is like living inside a shaken snow globe. Everything is in motion, nothing has settled. The first thing is to recognize where you are. The second is to accept that clarity comes later. There’s no guarantee it’ll happen quickly.
Someone tells me to read up on living through a “polycrisis.” Someone else dismisses it mockingly.
I shout into the void. I want names. I aim my rage. I want to turn it into a weapon and launch it into the sky. I am small and riddled with guilt.
I start naming what is in front of me.